Real Life Shit

1. I wasted time burning bridges.
2. I wasted time lying to people that matter.
3. I pretended to be like my peers.
4. I lied to everyone.
5. I perfected the fakest smile I could.
6. I made it seem like my home life was great.
7. I invited people over like crazy because it created a safe environment.
8. I made friends with girls I couldn’t stand.
9. I pushed away good guys for liars.
10. I failed classes but said I didn’t need help.
11. I told them I didn’t need their help.
12. I said I could care less if he left
13. I became such a good liar I could convince myself things that aren’t true are.
14. I laughed at their jokes, but didn’t get them.
15. I cut deeper then they could ever see.

Yeah, my fifteen years have been pretty fucking messed.

Dear tumblr, I made you to express without being judged? Why would I introduce you to my peers?

I’ve always considered it so selfish, and the easy way out, but lately the bad out weighs the good and I can’t find anything solid to hold on to..